Hi Peter its another year, did not realise it is 14 years now since you passed I hope you and mam and dad all together now, its been really hard for me, I seem to cope but some days I feel quite low, be looking after 1 fish and 1 hamster for Lynn as they have been in flamingo land for a week, she seems to like it there, chas wants to be a footballer and he is having a tough time through the passing of his friend Tyler it happened on his birthday, he is not coping well, the girls are OK Tammy was having a tough time, and I think Lynn is finding things hard although she does not say but I know deep down.

I still have no contact with Sarah & Darren so I kind of except it now that they do not want to talk to me, its still hard but they will not give me a chance, they did not want to know when I had my stroke, they have turned there back on me, but I will carry on.

I do not see type,Riley, jayden, but she has made the choice there, why can they not just get on with the future, Sarah Darren have to learn to forgive or how will they move forward, they seem to have more time for there father.

I have been to Hosp to get me mouth sorted out, hope things start to improve,never away from doctors like I'm falling apart.

I have big decision to make do I retire early in my life, my job held a lot of responsibilities taken on everyone situations, couldn't of helped me really, well there's lots of reasons to retirement.

Maybe its time to give something back to me, I have struggled over the years but I was never one to give up.

What would me mam and dad say a not sure at the moment.

Time will tell